So, uh...

I've not been doing so hot lately. I'm going to have to put my animation adventure on hold for the time being and ship my rear back to home. I'm very sad to be leaving, and to not have finished the program, especially since all of my classmates and year mates and teachers have been so awesome. Unfortunately it's gotten to the point where it's almost impossible to interest with people due to the anxiety and fear, I can hardly take care of myself, and have somehow pulled most of the hair out of the top of my head, let alone complete a very intense (awesome, but intense) animation course. I don't think that last sentence made grammatical sense. Oh well. I kept trying to convince myself it was fine, I wasn't that bad, I was too embarrassed to get help from the school or teachers or classmates, and well....

That said, I certainly do not regret going to animation school, and I have learnt so much and I do know, at the very least, the very, very least, I do not want to stop drawing, painting or making anything altogether like last time. And take the time to recover properly and relearn all them there ice skills I somehow never picked up. And yes, get all the tests (even bloodwork, sigh) and therapy. And hopefully, in the future, return to animation.

But I can't let myself stop drawing. Don't you guys let me stop!

I'm feeling cautiously optimistic. Sad and guilty that I screwed up animation school, but optimistic that I can improve, if I put my mind to it. And hey, there's only up from here, right?